I feel like every time I go to write something on this blog it’s always an apology/hello-I’m-still-alive post. We all know by now how useless I can be at this blogging stuff and in all honesty I just haven’t really had the words to put down on a page for a little while. And I still don’t really have much to say at the moment, but I’m feeling slightly inspired and am back at the keyboard. So here goes!
I am no longer a student. Hmm. Yep. Weird, tricky feeling that makes my brain hurt a little to think about where the last 3 years has gone. 3 whole years. Wow. It has honestly been the absolute time of my life and I am so wholeheartedly grateful for all of the people that I now have in my life because of those 3 years. I don’t know where I thought I would be or what I thought I would be doing at the start of those 3 years, but I am so happy that life has turned out the way it has. I still have not a scooby as to what the hell I’m going to do with my life, but I am having the best time figuring it all out.
So, I am still in my beloved Winchester. It’s hard to even think about leaving this beautiful place and I just knew that I wasn’t ready to go just yet. When a place makes you happy you can’t really bring yourself to leave. Although my time in Winch is rapidly coming to an end and I need a new plan to start my adult life with! If anyone has any suggestions then please let me know.
The most pressing thing in my life right now is job hunting. Ergh. I’m going to do another, more in depth post about my career search hopefully soon, but for now I will say that I have actually been enjoying the process – be it long and draining on my brain and self esteem. But alas, my ego is still somewhat intact and all things are so far seeming positive. I’m just completely impatient with it all now.
As far as writing goes, its all been a bit quiet. I just haven’t even wanted to think about words and I think it was just nice to have a break from it all after uni finished. Doing something you love as a study makes you fall out of love with it a little bit and I think I’ve needed this time away to get my words back in a straight line and ready to make amazing things! Well, at least things that are somewhat coherent.
I’m at this weird crossroads, limbo part of my life where anything goes and I have no idea where I will be and what I will be doing in a few months time. Supposedly this is an exciting thing, but I’ve never liked change or making decisions so it’s extremely daunting in my little head right now. Ever the positive me is just gonna have to sail through and try to not think about it too much!
I can’t wait until it’s all settled and I actually know what the next chapter in my life is going to be about. Adult life so far is confusing as hell, and that is just the thrill of it!
Wish me luck!